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šŸ’• Love, Lust, and Everything in Between

Messy thoughts welcome

About this Space

Attraction isn’t simple. Love isn’t linear. And most relationships don’t fit neat boxes.

Love, Lust, and Everything in Between is a Space to talk openly about the dynamics we don’t always say out loud; desire, avoidance, uncertainty, boundaries, unrequited feelings, and unmet needs.

Whether it’s a situationship, a long-term relationship, an ex you can’t shake, or something that never quite became ā€œsomething,ā€ this is where we talk it through without judgment or pressure to have it all figured out.

Together, we'll discuss prompts like:
* Is this connection feeding me—or just familiar?
* On a scale of one to toxic, how toxic is your desire for this person?
* Am I afraid of losing them… or afraid of choosing myself?
* When did something shift, and did you pretend it didn’t?

Messy thoughts welcome. Mixed feelings encouraged. Clarity optional.

Meet the Keeper

Vanessa is a Los Angeles-based artist and recovering hot mess. She's spent a good portion of her life getting in her own way, navigating depression, a complicated relationship with alcohol, and the many creative ways we convince ourselves we're fine when we're anything but.

Along the way, she's learned that …

Reach out to the Keeper: vanessa@totem.org
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