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šŸ’• Love, Lust, and Everything in Between

Messy thoughts welcome

About this Space

Attraction isn’t simple. Love isn’t linear. And most relationships don’t fit neat boxes.

Love, Lust, and Everything in Between is a Space to talk openly about the dynamics we don’t always say out loud; desire, avoidance, uncertainty, boundaries, unrequited feelings, and unmet needs.

Whether it’s a situationship, a long-term relationship, an ex you can’t shake, or something that never quite became ā€œsomething,ā€ this is where we talk it through without judgment or pressure to have it all figured out.

Together, we'll discuss prompts like:
* Is this connection feeding me—or just familiar?
* On a scale of one to toxic, how toxic is your desire for this person?
* Am I afraid of losing them… or afraid of choosing myself?
* When did something shift, and did you pretend it didn’t?

Messy thoughts welcome. Mixed feelings encouraged. Clarity optional.

Meet the Keeper

Vanessa is a Los Angeles-based artist and recovering hot mess. She's battled many challenges, from undiagnosed depression to struggling with alcohol abuse, and knows first hand how hard it is to face complex emotions alone.

Through her personal evolution, she's learned how to take action in her life, transforming negative …

Reach out to the Keeper: vanessa@totem.org
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