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Starting With Enough

😬 Self-Sabotage
Starting Aug 20, 2026 1AM UTC

About this Session

What would happen if we fully accepted who we are today instead of pining for a version of ourselves that doesn't actually exist?

What if we didn't have to wait until we'd changed before treating ourselves with kindness?

This doesn't mean giving up or settling. It means acknowledging where we are without shame so we can move forward with honesty instead of self-criticism.

**Today's Space is an invitation to appreciate the version of you that has made it this far while getting curious about where you want to grow next.

Come as you are. We're here for it. 💛

About this Space

Note: this is a camera-on Space. If that feels uncomfortable, not to worry! many of our other Spaces can be attended with just the audio.

Self-sabotage can feel oddly familiar, like an old pair of shoes that don’t fit but you keep wearing anyway.

It sneaks in so quietly we barely notice it. And before long, trying something new starts to feel risky while guilt and shame drown out any positive self-talk.

Sound like you? Yeah, me too.

The good news? These patterns don't have to be permanent.

The more honestly we understand ourselves, the easier it becomes to recognize the moments we slip back into old habits and choose something different.

If you’ve been through our 6-week Series on self-sabotage—or if you’re just ready to stop tripping over your own expectations—this follow-up support and accountability group is for you.

No fluff, no grand promises. Just a real space to keep each other honest and on track.

💛 Who is this Space for?

  • Past series members who want to keep the momentum going.
  • Newcomers who don’t mind diving in midstream and being honest about where they’re at.
  • Anyone who’s simply tired of the same old loops and wants a fresh pack of accountability.

Still don't know if this Space is right for you? If these questions stir something inside you, the answer is probably yes.

  • Can you explain your core values to a stranger?
  • What set you back this week?
  • When you look back at past projects or goals, what’s the most common point where things tended to unravel?
  • What did success or failure look like in your house growing up?
  • How do you feel about routines?

Need more guidance?
👉Check out our How it Works page!

Curious about what self-sabotage does to our relationships?
👉Check out our article: Is Self Sabotage Ruining Your Relationship? 5 Signs and How to Fix Them

Meet the Keeper

Vanessa is a Los Angeles-based artist and recovering hot mess. She's battled many challenges, from undiagnosed depression to struggling with alcohol abuse, and knows first hand how hard it is to face complex emotions alone.

Through her personal evolution, she's learned how to take action in her life, transforming negative 


Reach out to the Keeper: vanessa@totem.org
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