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EXP Farming 📈

Gamer Space 👾
with Gianni M
Starting Jul 02, 2026 5PM UTC

About this Session

You know what it feels like to grind. Head down, one more run, one more rep, one more day.

There's a version of that energy that works. EXP farming is efficient. You find the loop that pays out, you run it until you level up, and then you move on. Gamers understand this intuitively. The grind isn't glamorous, but it makes sense. It has a logic. And for a lot of people, that logic extends well beyond the game.

The harder question is what happens when the loop stops paying out. When you're putting in the same hours, the same effort, the same consistency you always have, and the number isn't going up. That's when the grind starts to feel less like a strategy and more like a ceiling. And that's also when a lot of people quietly start to wonder if something is wrong with them, rather than with the system.

There's also the version of grinding that never quite stops. The person who can't let themselves rest without feeling like they're falling behind. Who keeps farming when they're already capped, because stopping feels more dangerous than the burnout does. That's a different problem. And it tends to have a longer history than just one bad season.

This session isn't about productivity. It's about what you're actually after when you grind, what it costs when it stops working, and what you've been telling yourself to keep going. Whether you're in the middle of a grinding season right now or just coming out of one, this is a place to put it down for a minute and look at it honestly.

About this Space

The gaming community is massive. And somehow, it can still feel incredibly lonely.

This is a Space for gamers to speak honestly about what's going on beneath the surface, without needing to have it all together, perform for the group, or leave the hard stuff at the door.

Gaming is one of the most powerful community-builders of our time. We can bond deeply over a shared world, a competitive grind, a stream we've followed for years. But those connections are often built around the activity itself, and it can be hard to find a natural opening to talk about what's really going on: the stress, the isolation, the identity questions, the emotional weight that doesn't pause when we pick up a controller.

This group offers a place to slow down and reflect in the company of others who get the culture and are curious about the inner life that exists alongside it. Together we'll explore the ways gaming shapes how we connect, how we cope, and how we see ourselves. We'll sit with questions about community, belonging, mental health, and what it means to find real support in spaces that weren't always designed for it.

There's no pressure to show up any particular way, just an invitation to be real, in whatever way feels right.

Meet the Keeper

Gianni M

Los Angeles, CA

"Acting is the study of human behavior, and there is nothing more fascinating than that." -Lee Strassberg

Gianni (he/him) is an actor based in Los Angeles. His study of the performing arts across screen and stage has informed his understanding of the human condition through analysis of our ancient urge …

Reach out to the Keeper: gianni@totem.org
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